THE GAYAN
RAGAS
(Raga: The human soul calling
upon the beloved God.)
Thy light hath illuminated
the dark chambers of my mind; Thy love is rooted in the depths of my heart;
Thine own eyes are the light of my soul; Thy power worketh behind my action;
Thy peace alone is my life's repose; Thy will is behind my every impulse;
Thy voice is audible in the words I speak; Thine own image is my countenance.
My body is but a cover over Thy soul; my life is Thy very breath, my Beloved,
and my self is Thine own being.
Thou pourest wine into my
empty cup wherever we meet, on hills and dales, on the tops of the high
mountains, in the thick forests and in the barren deserts, on the shores
of the roaring sea and on the banks of the gentle river; and there ariseth
in my heart the unearthly passion and the heavenly joy.
Thou hast won my heart a
thousand times over; Thou comest veiled under many and varied guises, and
in every guise Thou art unique. Who is not attracted by the splendor Thou
hast so skillfully produced on the face of the earth? In this beauty fair
Thou shinest, adorned in myriad garbs. Thine own is all the beauty, and
Thou shinest and yet are not Thyself attracted by it. Thou in this stage
of life actest as friend and foe, and Thou alone seest the play performed
so wonderfully. I sought Thee so long, my Beloved, and now I have found
Thee at last, O Winner of my heart, and in finding Thee I have lost myself.
Let me feel Thine arms around
me, my Beloved, while I am
wandering away from home. Let my
heart become Thy lute. Hearing Thy song my soul cometh to life. Let my
virgin soul dance at Thy court, my Indra; the passion it hath is for Thee
alone. O, let me lean my head on Thy breast; Thine arms enfolding me, my
feet touch paradise.
Wherever I look, I see Thy
beloved face, covered under many different veils. The magic power of my
ever-seeking eyes lifted the veil from Thy glowing countenance, and Thy
smile won my heart a thousand times over. The lustre of Thy piercing glance
hath lighted my darkened soul, and now I see the sunshine everywhere.
In the brightness of day
and in the darkness of night what didst Thou not teach me! Thou hast taught
me what is meant by wrong and what is called right. Thou hast shown me
the hideous face of life, and Thou hast unveiled before me life's beautiful
countenance. Thou hast taught me wisdom out of utter darkness of ignorance.
Thou has taught me to think after my thoughtless moments. Thou playest
with me, my Beloved Lord and Master, hide and seek! Thou closest mine eyes
and Thou dost open them.
When we are face to face,
Beloved, I do not know whether to call Thee me, or me Thee! I see myself
when Thou art not before me; when I see Thee my self is lost to view. I
consider it good fortune when Thou art alone with me, but when I am not
there at all, I think it the greatest blessing.
Thy whisper to the ears of
my heart moveth my soul to ecstasy. The waves of joy that rise out of my
heart form a net in which Thy living Word may swing. My heart patiently
awaiteth Thy Word, deaf to all that cometh from without. O Thou, who art
enshrined in my heart, speak again to me; Thy voice exalteth my spirit.
When Thou art before me,
my Beloved, I rise upon wings, and my burden becometh light; but when my
little self riseth before my eyes I do drop to earth, and all its weight
falleth upon me.
My soul is moved to dance
by the charm of Thy graceful movements, and my heart beateth the rhythm
of Thy dancing steps. The deep impression of Thy sweet countenance, O Winner
of my heart, covereth all visible things from my sight. My heart repeateth
a thousand times the melody Thou playest on Thy flute; it setteth my soul
in harmony with the whole universe.
I dare not think of raising
mine eyes to behold Thy glorious vision; I sit quietly by the lake of my
heart, watching in it Thine image reflected.
Thou givest me Thine own
love and Thou winnest my heart
with the charm of Thy beauty. When
I approach Thee, my Beloved, Thou sayest to me, "Touch me not."
I cling to Thee with a child's
faith, bearing Thy most lovely image in my heart. I sought refuge in Thy
bosom, Beloved, and I am safe, feeling Thine arms around me.
How shall I thank Thee, my
King, for Thy bountiful
gifts? Every gift Thou givest me,
my generous Lord, is invaluable. A tongue of flame arose from the spark
in my heart by Thy gentle blowing. Thou dost hear my softest whisper; Thou
hast taught me Thine own tongue and to read the character written by Thy
pen.
I call Thee my King when
I am conscious of my bubble-like
self; but when I am conscious of
Thee, my Beloved, I call Thee me.
How shall I thank Thee for
Thy mercy and compassion, O King of my soul? What didst Thou not unto me
when I was walking alone through the wilderness, through the darkness of
night? Thou camest with Thy lighted torch and didst illuminate my path.
Frozen with the coldness of the world's hardness of heart I sought refuge
in Thee, and Thou didst console me with Thine endless love. I knocked at
Thy gate at last when I had no answer from anywhere in the world, and Thou
didst readily answer the call of my broken heart.
I searched, but I could not
find Thee; I called Thee aloud, standing on the minaret; I rang the temple
bell with the rising and setting of the sun; I bathed in the Ganges in
vain; 1 came back from Ka'ba disappointed; I looked for Thee on earth;
I searched for Thee in the heaven, my Beloved, but at last I have found
Thee hidden as a pearl in the shell of my heart.
I would willingly die a thousand
deaths if by dying I could attain Thy most lofty presence. If it were a
cup of poison Thy beloved hand offered, I would prefer that poison to the
bowl of nectar. 1 value the dust under Thy feet, my Precious One, most
of all the treasures the earth holds. If my head could touch the earth
of Thy dwelling-place, I would proudly refuse Khusru's crown. I would gladly
sacrifice all pleasures the earth can offer me, if I could only retain
Thy pain in my feeling heart.
One moment's life lived with
Thee is worth more than a life of long years lived in Thine absence.
My lifelong sorrow I forget
when Thou castest Thy glance upon me. Time is not for me; one glimpse of
Thy glorious vision maketh me eternal.
It is Thou who art my pride;
when i realize my limited self, I feel myself the humblest of all living
beings.
O Thou, the seed of my life's
plant, Thou wert hidden so long in my budlike soul; but now Thou hast come
out, O my life's fruit, after the blossoming of my heart.
Let me grow quietly in Thy
garden as a speechless plant, that some day my flowers and fruits may sing
the legend of my silent past.
Thy music causeth my soul
to dance; in the murmur of the wind I hear Thy flute; the waves of the
sea keep the rhythm of my dancing steps. Through the whole of nature I
hear Thy music played, my Beloved; my soul while dancing speaketh of its
joy in song.
Thy smile has brought my dead
heart to life again; my life and death depend upon the closing and disclosing
of Thy magic glance.
O give me one more cup, O
Saki, which I will value more than the whole life I have lived.
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